I think i'm depressed again. I've noticed that if I stay home all day and don't 'connect' with the real world, my mind starts to destroy itself and little things really affect me more than they should - it also doesn't help when you're alone and don't have friends/partner to talk to. I feel like i'm stuck on my own to deal with my own problems which is not easy at all!
I received a copyright infringement on one of my youtube channels for posting a tutorial video which I had made in good faith. It has been resolved now, but I still feel strange about it and can't seem to let it go.
I've also had to let go of a friend who was being a little inappropriate towards me. In the end, I think it was better to let him go because we couldn't be friends if there was always sexual tension between us. Sometimes it's fun to just 'ignore' the hidden feelings and play with it, but I feel that it's better to point it out and deal with it, rather than just 'see how things go' attitude.
It's crazy how just yesterday things were going amazingly well - I worked as a simulated actor and helped more students become better physiotherapists, I went to a group interview for the Australian Open and met some wonderful people there, came home and shot a blog and edited/uploaded it and I also slept well too. Today, I had a day off and I am depressed. I don't know how I can handle this constant up and down. It really is a lot to handle and I probably should:
1) move out of home - after my massage exam
2) get a consistent job with a consistent income
3) the rest will follow.
ok, now i'm tiered from writing about my depressed day. I guess I can finally goto sleep now and hopefully sleep all the way through and not wake up and scratch myself. Sorry for the rather ugly post. I just wanted to let it out and show you that I'm human (not that anyone even reads these blogs).
Oh, here's something that will cheer you up! My vlog on the Melbourne Show!
I received a copyright infringement on one of my youtube channels for posting a tutorial video which I had made in good faith. It has been resolved now, but I still feel strange about it and can't seem to let it go.
I've also had to let go of a friend who was being a little inappropriate towards me. In the end, I think it was better to let him go because we couldn't be friends if there was always sexual tension between us. Sometimes it's fun to just 'ignore' the hidden feelings and play with it, but I feel that it's better to point it out and deal with it, rather than just 'see how things go' attitude.
It's crazy how just yesterday things were going amazingly well - I worked as a simulated actor and helped more students become better physiotherapists, I went to a group interview for the Australian Open and met some wonderful people there, came home and shot a blog and edited/uploaded it and I also slept well too. Today, I had a day off and I am depressed. I don't know how I can handle this constant up and down. It really is a lot to handle and I probably should:
1) move out of home - after my massage exam
2) get a consistent job with a consistent income
3) the rest will follow.
ok, now i'm tiered from writing about my depressed day. I guess I can finally goto sleep now and hopefully sleep all the way through and not wake up and scratch myself. Sorry for the rather ugly post. I just wanted to let it out and show you that I'm human (not that anyone even reads these blogs).
Oh, here's something that will cheer you up! My vlog on the Melbourne Show!
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