I'm having a pretty good week so far! Last night I went out partying and made some new friends and it was a real boost to my confidence. I admit, I have a thing for gingers, and whenever I see someone with red hair, I get overly excited and freeze up, but last night I stayed calm, relaxed and just said 'hi' and it wasn't as frightening as I thought. It's so easy to make up things in your mind before testing them in reality.

Next week I'm WORKING ALL WEEK! Medical acting work, nursing school work, physio work, shooting a TVC, teaching singing, filming a cultural drama stage production. I am so blessed to be given ACTING WORK! I am even more blessed because I've had so much work recently, that I have had to pick and choose which ones to do! WOW!

Last week I had a meeting with my psychic/life coach and she made me realise you don't need to suffer in order to get rewarded. In other words, good things come to you because you are 'open' to it, and not because you had to 'work' for it.

• Worked on Upper Middle Bogan where I played my violin (I'm surprised I still even remember how to play as the last time I touched my violin was 12 years ago in high school!)

• Working on Neighbours next week!

• Doing some acting work for the Physiotherapy department at Monash and some training videos for the nursing department.

Last week one of my friends posted this music video on Facebook of Robbie Ooh singing and playing piano. As soon as I heard it, I felt the urge to help him add drums, guitar etc. to the rest of the song. After working crazily, I managed to do it within 24 hours, emailed it to him and he LOVED IT! It really made my day knowing that I made someone happy! I can't wait until it is finished! Then I want to add a music video to it! 

Ok that's about all for now! I have to rush off to a lyric writing seminar with Pat Pattinson at JMC Music Academy. I'm also working on writing a new dance/pop track! Chat soon!

Well what a tough month it has been!

I finished my massage exam, so now I'm a qualified massage therapist!

I had a look at a few casual jobs, but I've decided to be an entrepreneur and start up my own business! I'm not sure what I'm going to do yet, but I'll figure something out. I've been hanging out with 'freelancers' recently and I really like their lifestyle! I could see myself doing what they do. They also seem less worried and are generally happier people!

I recorded a country song with my friend Grace and soon we are going to shoot a music video for it! I've never felt so empowered in my life! I FINALLY sound good on the recording after struggling with singing for over 10 years, and I also managed to record/edit it properly using all the skills I learnt from school.

I also entered a singing competition and it was a really good confidence boost! FINALLY i'm doing what I've wanted to do and I stopped worrying about money/career/trying to be the best etc.

I've also been more consistent with gym and exercising more regularly and I feel so good. I've become a better dancer and although I'm still having trouble memorising the steps, I've become more comfortable in dance class and being myself! 

In the mean time, here's a video I made last month! I DID EVERYTHING on it and I feel AMAZING!

Tomorrow I'm heading to Ballarat for some acting work - what's even better is that I'm getting PAID to travel there as well as work there.

I recently have been struggling to find a suitable after-hours/weekend job with a reliable income so that I can persue acting around it. Instead, I have been relying on odd jobs such as teaching, giving massages, random acting jobs but I don't think I can handle much more of this as I really want to move out of home and grow as a person. I had a few miracle jobs handed to me like a restaurant job, bar job, massage job but they all went cold... I'm scared to get a casual retail job because getting out of a shift is going to be a pain.

My friends made me realise that I am quite qualified to do anything really - retail experience, multiple degrees, teaching experience etc. but just because you CAN doesn't mean you SHOULD. I'm not too sure what to do, but I'll just keep trying. In the meantime, I'm going to celebrate attracting the trip to Ballarat as well as another acting job next week that I attracted! Focus on the good things and you'll get more!

I've been rather out of touch in the past month, but that's because I had no idea breakups take so long to heal! Due to the stress of it, my physical body became ill with a fever, night sweats, muscle aches and pains, tremors. Combined with the emotional loss of a lovely friendship, things really became unstable!

During my time in darkness however, I managed to attract amazing miracles handed to me on a silver platter such as:

• an audition for Tourism Australia paying a substantial amount if I got the role
• a voiceover gig handed straight to me without needing to audition
• a well known agent asking to represent me

The only problem was that all of these things were in Sydney, and I live in Melbourne. It had made me wonder if I should move to Sydney and follow my dreams. One of the last things my friend said to me was "Go for it Kenny, you really CAN have it all". Maybe now is the time to make the move? I'll be turning 29 in 20 days and this is my time to shine! If not now, then when?

Just thought I'd do a quick update on what's going on for me this year.

• I finished my Cert IV in Sound Engineering at RMIT and got my certificate a few days ago!
  
• I'm studying remedial massage this year in South Melbourne!
  
• I became a Doctor of Paranormal Psychology from the LA institute!
  
• I got offered a job to sing on a Miami cruise ship but I turned it down because I didn't feel ready.
• I'm looking for a casual job with locked in hours so that I can move out of home! Hopefully they will be flexible enough for me to continue to pursue acting! I'm really focusing on moving out of home and becoming more independent! Yes, I'll lose a bit of security, but I think I will gain so much more.
  
• I had my heart broken recently but hey, i'm healing again and I learnt a lot about myself and relationships/life through it! I learnt not to trust people so easily which is a shame because I usually believe people have good intentions but it appears not!
  
• I have 'let go' of my dreams (which doesn't mean quit). It simply means let the universe do what it needs to do and I will try my best not to resist or get too attached to the outcome
• I am slowly rebuilding my life from scratch but this time I will only allow good/beneficial things to enter. Anything toxic will be removed immediately no matter how painful it will temporarily be.
• I have a fun and amazing life ahead of me and I want to share it with everyone!

I'm flying out to Sydney in a few hours to attend Vidinc (a slightly lower key youtube gathering compared to VidCON). JENNA MARBLES is going to be there! She's a true inspiration to me because she did the whole uni thing, got a degree but she still followed her heart and did what she wanted. Now she's into business and it's pretty close to what I want to do! I want to have my own website, sell my merch, market myself and do lots of fun stuff. I'm getting excited thinking about the future. It's fun when you simply let go of the fear what amazing things you can do with your life.
Hopefully I will get a chance to shoot some blogs while I'm there.
Peace out!

I had a meeting with a lovely melbourne film director for a product web commercial. It turns out that he's very similar to me - he's from melbourne and is moving to LA to pursue his dreams - the very exact same thing I want to do. I also used to be a producer so I could see where he's coming from. It felt more like 2 producers rather than a director and actor meeting. I'm so glad to be working with him  because when 2 people of similar life goals work together, something very powerful happens. (I'm also happy because I didn't have to 'audition' for the role). Instead he bought me coffee and we had a 'chat' just like how the professionals do it in LA. WOW! THANK YOU TIM! 

They say when you let things go, it comes flying back!

This week I've had a TVC offer, a role in a low budget film in Sydney, a meeting with a new agent, musical theatre audition, a VCA short film offer and some more medical acting work. 

Recently I have decided to let go of acting to focus on a more 'stable' life. I really want to get my life back on track so that my ecosystem is balanced again. I feel that acting was demanding too much of my energy and not providing me with the nourishment I need to get through my daily life. 

However, as soon as I let go, all these acting offers/auditions came up within 1 WEEK. It is very rare that I even get a TVC audition, let alone role offers so I think the universe is probably telling me not to give up on acting. The world obviously needs me

I am very lucky to have the opportunity to go back to school this year. sounds strange? - to you it might.

Going to school allows me to connect to the real world instead of dreaming at home and getting depressed. I get to meet new people everyday and make real friendships.

I really enjoy going to class and hearing my teachers talk about how the world should be like (anti-bullying, anti-discrimination etc.) and he is really helping us shape the world into a better place.

I'm grateful that I'm forming richer friendships with real people, 2 of which are staring me right now :P