Medical work

I have taken a mini break from acting recently to figure out what I really want. I've been torn between acting and songwriting. Everytime i goto the movies, I want to follow my acting dreams, and everytime i sit in the car, I want to persue songwriting. I feel like I better make a decision right now so that I dont sit on the fence forever. Last night I was inspired to go into song writing and even learnt how to use garageband thanks to my friend, but then today I got called up to do some emergency acting work at the medical school where I realised how much I like it. I also met someone nice too! I felt really good doing it, so here we go again... I am torn....however if I look deeper, perhaps there is an underlying issue that is causing me to feel 'stuck'? I feel like I want to hang around young intelligent people to make me feel connected. I miss being around others as acting and song writing is very personal for me and not 'grounded' enough. Tomorrow I have more medical work so we'll see how it goes. We'll see who I'll meet!