opps i terrorized myself and now I'm sick

I completely terrorised my inner child with fear this week and as a result, I got sick. Sickness usually occurs when I'm too scared to deal with my issues, so I hide behind illness. Here's what I discovered:

• Got an email from my real estate agent asking me if I want to renew the lease for another year. I kind of like living here but I'm sure I might be able to find better places, but that depends on the location, housemate, lifestyle etc. it all got a bit too much thinking about it and DIED
• Put up a youtube video this week but only got 6 likes. I felt like my career was over and I'll never be popular or make it in the industry. I DIED
• Decided to give up on my music and acting career to become a physiotherapist. I want my boyfriend to be stable and don't think I could ever date an actor/musician which means that I need to become stable myself in order to attract this. However, this meant letting go of my childhood dreams of becoming an actor/singer and therefore I DIED
• Came across a studio for rent for me to do massages, but I don't even have customers so how can I afford to rent a separate room for it? but if I don't rent a room, there's no way I can do it from my house unless I move out? oh it was too hard so I DIED
  

moving house, self esteem issues, career changes are HUGE steps and it just so happened to hit me all at once so therefore "I now forgive myself for scaring myself. All is well in my world and everything is working out perfectly".

Amen to that :)